Mother me, what have you done.

Moving in to town was one of the best and worst things my mother could have done for me at this point of my life. I mean, yes it's closer to everything and it's also closer to her work so if I need something I can come and see her rahh rahh rahh.. But seriously. I don't even have a dollar right now. There is no food in my house other than a few day-old slices of bread and a can of baked beans. Oh, maybe some cinnamon and paprika. But honestly, what am I to do with that. Make a baked bean and paprika toastie? NO!! I refuse!! So when I go to her for help, she decides that my health is less important than spending $15 precious dollars on organic vegetables every week, which may I add we have 2 weeks worth of which sitting in our fridge going limp. I say to her, "but we don't even use them!!" and she replies, "I wasn't home, Temika. Now that I'm home we'll cook much more."
I can't even express my anger right now. I feel like I'm about to cry I'm so hungry and usually spoilt. Even Kentucky has better food than I do. So she starts to say, "Well there's vegetables in the fridge.." and I storm out.

I get home and the phone rings. It's my mum, and she says, "I just remembered that you have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, so don't worry about going to Beanstalk with me." (Beanstalk being the organic vegetable club thingy) I am riddled with glee thinking she has come to her senses and will buy me a kebab, alas, she continues with, "I'll go alone because we won't bother going to Aldi afterward."

ARE YOU KIDDING ME. Seriously, I wanted to go to Aldi to get a $1.49 punnet of strawberries so I could make cupcakes for a fucking picnic tomorrow with a friend that I haven't seen in months, and she would rather spend $15 on shit that we won't use then $1.49 on shit that would make me fucking happy for once. I didn't even know what to say to her. I was absolutely speechless. Eventually, I gathered enough breath to whisper, "but I wanted to go to Aldi.. We were going because I wanted to go."

I am a very selfish person. I have done some very selfish things in my lifetime. And I don't care if people think that this is a stupid thing to be getting upset about. But you don't take fucking Bok Choy to a picnic, and I miss Kate and I don't want to turn up empty handed. Today, my mum's a douchebag. As if you would move an unemployed 18 year old into boutique and cafe central (for Newcastle, at least) then not give her any money or food.

Man, 7 months ago DOCS would kick her ass so hard.